November 26, 2012

  • Benefit of the Doubt

    I was conned. It's hard to give someone the benefit of the doubt. You tell them about you and who you are and how you're different and why you're not normal, and they tell you they understand and that's great. They read what you want http://endlessmike03.xanga.com/472760367/item/, in fact they read all you ever wrote, and still they stick around. And you hope they're truthful and hope it really is you that they'd be with, but in the end, they want you to be like everyone else. Despite all you've been through, it becomes just a few button clicks on a relationship status. Through the worst times of your life, or that anyone could have in their lives. That's all it is. Never trust, never.

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  • i'm sure you're just writing to write and don't want someone to come in and be like 'hey you should do this' or 'have you tried that'? But, i'm going to be one of those assholes right now. No idea what you're going through--none. Rough, tough stuff and I'm so very very sorry. However, I have had close friends and family members who have had similar experiences (late term miscarriages, dead upon birth, etc) and can empathize. It sucks. And it doesn't make sense, especially when it happens to someone so fragile and innocent. So...while I can say that, I'm wondering if you have tried grief counseling? one of my aunts is a former hospice nurse and it's something she recommends all the time, goes herself, and i think it can really help. I just feel there's a lot of anger and sadness here, something like that may help work some feelings out.

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