February 26, 2013

• German Words

  So many of my emotions are governed by schadenfreude and then the bastardized-version freudenschade. Makes me so angry when I see good things happen to people. A somewhat-ex-type-person had a baby thing and I'm honked off. Then I eat peanut butter. All natural of course. Very few carbs. Negligable really. It's my ketogenic diet.

  I want to sit in a cabin in Wisconsin in winter for a few months and think about things. I wonder how little decisions spiraled outwards. Somehow things work out.

  I think usually things work out because I smile a lot and have good positive energy. If you sit and think about it, and then watch someone, it's not very often that people actually come out with a positive vibe. I see lots of bitching and moaning. And even an accomplishment is written off as just a hurdle to the next problem. I don't like that, and I tend not to be like that. 

  Did you know that when someone tells me good morning, my automatic default answer is "Hey, good morning." I can't help it.  

  I'm going to write some more about homeless people and urinals later. I like writing, and it's easy because I'm certified as a 114 wpm typer. Thank you AOL Instant Messenger of the 1990s. But, lots of people used that, but somehow I ended up as a great typer. Imagine if I had tried something worthwhile with my fingers like piano. There's another timewarp spiral tentacle to investigate.

  I'm feeling really sentimental tonight. I remember it being 2006 and I lived in that old woman's house, and I'd spend nights scouring MySpace feeling sentimental, so it's nothing new. I don't know what I want out of sentimentality and the actions that follow. I think I want everyone to just think the way I do. To appreciate everything with the depth I feel I do. To want to rip backwards through time and embrace it all one more time.

  • 8:17 pm
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